My altenheimers is acting up (No Comments)

I started a wordpress blog a while ago with this exact title.

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However I haven’t had a great deal of time to write much.  So now, rather than trying to manage two blogs and my family and my teaching and my writing, I am consolidating my thoughts on Alzheimers, into this location.

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Growing up, whenever my mom would forget something, normal forgetting, she would say ‘my altenheimers is acting up’ as a joke.

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Now that joke is a reality and my mom is suffering from dementia.  When I say suffering, I mean it.  Sure, she is in early to mid stages still but she is suffering. Emotionally and mentally.  She is worried and anxious, pretty much all the time.

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I am looking into getting her a geriatric specialist now who will follow her as the disease progress.  But I need someone good, who is caring too.  Not someone who is going to separate us at appointments and keep us apart for hours until my mom threatens to call the police on them just so she can go home.  This happened, I am NOT kidding.

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Anyway, my mom is doing okay.  And the good news is that I am handling it better too.  Sometimes it is about me, ok?

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I was crying every day last year when we got the diagnosis.  I took a day and cried until I couldn’t cry any more and I haven’t cried since…ok, not much at least.  I feel like I am better able to cope with it now.

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While my mom is doing ok, the person she was, was gone a year ago.  I’ve mourned that loss.  I’ve even accepted it, I think.  And now we are moving forward.

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My mom is losing her ability to speak properly, meaning she is often having difficulty selecting the words she wants to say and sometimes when I speak with her, she doesn’t know what I am saying.  Like when I asked her to chop something and she didn’t know what the word ‘chop’ meant…she used to know.  This has happened with other words too.

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I am trying to focus on the fact that my mom is still here.  She is still alive.  And she can laugh and smile.  Does she get confused?  Sure.  Don’t we all?!  I grew up being afraid of losing my mother so I am really glad now that I  still have her.

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Sometimes you just have to look at the glass as being half full.

 

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